It's seriously amazing the path that life takes you down. In the past 3 years, my life has changed drastically. My ideas and feelings toward certain things have taken a complete 180 turn and I'm like, this new person. This new Danae, yet, the same one...all rolled into one. :) I still love to be silly and laugh and sing and give, but I'm more guarded now, private and more calculated with my decisions. Although I never would have expected where life has brought me, I wouldn't change it for a minute. There were times that I would cry myself to sleep and I would remember feeling like, "why is this happening to me..? why do I have to go through this. why is lonliness so depressing?" Looking back on those days are just a distant memory to me now. God has brought me so far, and I really owe it to him. Through trials, mistakes I've made and just plain life...he has never left me, nor forsaken me. ♥
I've learned how to love in a new way, I mean, REALLY love. And I have learned how to BE loved. ♥ You know the feeling. When someone actually loves you for who you truly are, all masks taken off, all guards let down...just you, and you totally can't believe that you are THAT loveable? I always thought I knew, but no, it's something I've been taught the past few years.
I've also learned what it's like to really feel God's grace. To know that no matter what, you are a child of God and he truly loves you and smiles upon you. Wow...it doesn't get much better than that.
I have imagined owning my own business for years now, but was somewhat scared because you think, "are people even going to like what i make ?" " is anyone going to buy anything?" But I got this sort of bravery as of late and I'm like, better now than never and I totally feel like this is what I'm supposed to do. It's like, a light when on when I started designing and playing with materials and taking pictures and selling...like, "DANAE, WHY HAVEN'T YOU BEEN DOING THIS THE WHOLE TIME?" Grrrrr!!!! ;P Well, now I am, and you know what, if I don't sell anything ever again and people totally hate what I make (*fingers crossed, I really hope not*) I am so proud of myself and of where I have come from. More than anything, more than what I've been through...I've never been happier or felt more loved. I honestly wish this on everyone! Yeah, I have bad days that totally stink!!!!! But, don't we all? And isn't that what life is? A mixture of good and bad. That mixture makes something very beautiful...that mixture makes us who we truly are. And I'll never regret that.